There is so much misunderstanding about black and white and which is the absence of COLOR. This question has been asked over and over with different answers depending on who you ask. Many years ago, I had the same question and I became so frustrated with all the different answers, the different logic (or lack thereof), and so, I decided to research this question for myself. The result of that research is that both black and white are the absence of color and both black and white encompass all colors – but that depends on whether you’re talking about colors of PIGMENT or colors of LIGHT. There IS a difference.

Black is the absence of LIGHT, not COLOR. If you took every color crayon you had and colored in one spot with all of them, the result would be black, not white.

White on the other hand is the absence of COLOR in pigment, however, it is the presence of all colors in light. This is true because white REFLECTS all colors in the light spectrum whereas black REFLECTS none.

Blessed Be


I am an SIM

I am an SIM. What? What does that mean? While I identify much with Wicca, if I had to be completely honest, I must admit the whole truth. I am an SIM. SIM stands for Student of the Inner Mysteries. It is my belief that long, long ago, All World Religions Were One Religion. With the meddling of men in a quest for power, the once united religions branched off into sub religions for no other reason than to make certain groups feel more powerful than others. Human emotions such as jealousy, envy, pride, gluttony, and greed also played into this branching off from the ONE religion and the ensuing intolerance of others that followed. Don’t get me wrong; it would be ludicrous to say that at one time long ago, all peoples believed the very same things about all things. We are human after all and it is our very diversity that separates us from other species; however, I believe our ancestors held as sacred that precise diversity and understood that the various allegories, parables, and metaphors used by different communities were all a part of what was known as the Outer Mysteries. These are techniques and methods used to give the seeker a basic foundation on which to painstakingly, through research, experience, and self-reflection, attain insight into the Inner Mysteries, the deeper meaning behind the lessons taught by the Outer Mysteries. The Inner Mysteries are the truths that I do believe at one time long ago, we all, as humans, did agree on: that if what you seek you find not within, you will never find it without. A quote from the book The Inner Mysteries, by Janet Farrar and Gavin Bone states, “the external structure of your religion is not more important than the inner mysteries of your spiritual path.”

Each of us is divine as we are all a part of something larger than ourselves. Humans may now be able to clone DNA but we obviously did not create ourselves. The very first speck of space dust or that Alpha energy came from something larger than us. Some call this divine energy God. Some call it the Goddess. Others don’t believe in either of these but it is a fact that something outside ourselves caused us to be, whether it be God, the Goddess, evolution or some other energy. Rose Adriane ( states, “Although we might talk about the Goddess (yin) and the father God (yang), the Great Mystery is truly genderless and even somewhat incomprehensible to our 3-dimensional brains.” And while the various texts, practices, dogmas, rules, and rituals (the Outer Mysteries) can be useful in giving us a foundation on which to build, I believe the truth is that your personal discovery of your divine self (the Inner Mysteries) is much more important than anything outside yourself.

I have spent much of my life in research and in the study of the diversity of belief systems around the world, and while many understand that there is no EMPERICAL evidence that proves any spiritual path is the “right” one, I find it extremely fascinating that millions of people claim that very thing. For me, I will continue to read, research, and keep an open mind. My path has led me to read the following books at one time or another in my life. This is by no means a complete list; I have forgotten 10 times more than what I can remember.

Have you read any of these? What books have your read that intrigued you the most? What other writings would you recommend?

  • 25th Anniversary Edition Faeries by Brian Froud and Alan Lee
  • A Brief History of Science by John Gribbin
  • A Brief History of Time by Stephen Hawking
  • A History of the End of the World by Jonathan Kirsch
  • A Simple Act of Gratitude by John Kralik
  • A Witch’s Bible – The Paranormal by Janet Farrar
  • A World Full of Gods – The Strange Triumph of Christianity by Keith Hopkins
  • A Wrinkle in Time by Madeleine L’Engle
  • AKA The Bible NIV
  • An Instant Guide to Edible Plants by Pamela Forey and Cecilia Fitzsimons
  • Angels and Demons – Special Illustrated Edition by Dan Brown
  • Babylonian Religion and Mythology by L.W. King
  • Book of Shadows – Spells by Black Cat Press
  • Cracking the Symbol Code by Tim Wallace-Murphy
  • Da Vinci Decoded – Discovering the Spiritual Secrets of Leonardo’s Seven Principles by Michael J. Gelb
  • Descarte’s Notebook by Amir D. Aczel
  • Discovering the Wonders of Our World by Reader’s Digest
  • Drawing Down the Moon by Margot Adler
  • Drawing for Dummies by Brenda Hoddinott
  • Encyclopedia of Spirits by Judika Illes
  • Enuma Elish – The Seven Tablets of Creation Vol One and Two, Edited by L.W. King
  • Genesis of the Grail Kings by Laurence Gardner
  • Genesis Revisited by Zecharia Sitchin
  • Gods or Spacemen? By W. Raymond Drake
  • Good and Evil in Myth and Legend by Anthony S. Mercante
  • Greek Mythology and Religion by Maria Mavromataki
  • Holy Blood, Holy Grail by Michael Baigent, Richard Leigh & Henry Lincoln
  • Immanuel Kant – Fundamental Principles of the Metaphysic of Morals
  • Invisible Acts of Power by Caroline Myss
  • Jesus and the Lost Goddess by Timothy Freke & Peter Gandy
  • Journeys to the Mythical Past by Zecharia Sitchin
  • Just Weeds by Pamela Jones
  • Lady Cottington’s Pressed Fairy Book by Terry Jones (Brian Froud Illustrations)
  • Laurie Cabot’s Book of Spells and Enchantments by Laurie Cabot
  • Leadership and Self-Deception by the Arbinger Institute
  • Life 101 by Peter McWilliams
  • Lost Christianities – The Battles for Scripture and the Faiths We Never Knew by Bart D. Ehrman
  • Lost Scriptures – Books that Did Not Make It into the New Testament by Bart D. Ehrman
  • Luke – The Gospel of Amazement by Michael Card
  • Made From Scratch by Jenna Woginrich
  • Magic with Incense and Powders by Anna Riva
  • Magick in Theory and Practice by Aleister Crowley
  • Magick Potions by Gerina Dunwich
  • Making Aromatherapy Creams and Lotions by Donna Maria
  • Malleus Maleficarum by Heinrich Dramer, James Sprenger
  • Math for Mystics by Renna Shesso
  • Meetings With Remarkable Tress by Thomas Pakenham
  • Merlin’s Book of Magick and Enchantment by Merlin – published by Smithmark
  • Mythology by C. Scott Littleton
  • Naturopathic Handbook of Herbal Formulas by Herbal Research Publications
  • Never In Your Wildest Dreams by Natalie Ledwell
  • Nostradamus – The Final Reckoning by Peter Lemesurier
  • Numerology by Hazel Whitaker
  • Old Time Remedies for Modern Ailments by Rev. Hanna Kroeger, MsD.
  • OVID Metamorphoses translated by Rolfe Humphries
  • Paganism by River Higginbotham
  • Plato: Early Dialogues by Plato
  • Popul Vuh – The Definitive Edition of the Mayan Book of the Dawn of Life and the Glories of Gods and Kings translated by Dennis Tedlock
  • Power of the Witch by Laurie Cabot
  • Rosslyn, Guardian of the Secrets of the Holy Grail by Tim Wallace-Murphy & Marilyn Hopkins
  • Secrets of Magical Seals by Anna Riva
  • Secrets of the Freemasons by Michael Bradley
  • Sins Against the Children by Audry Colleen Browne
  • Smithsonian Intimate Guide to the Cosmos by Dana Berry
  • Soup: A Recipe to Nourish Your Team and Culture by Jon Gordon
  • Spirit of the Witch by Raven Grimassi
  • Sumerian and Babylonian Psalms by Stephen Langdon, Ph.D.
  • Symbol & Magic in Egyptian Art by Richard H. Wilkinson
  • The 12th Planet by Zecharia Sitchin
  • The 21 Lessons of Merlyn – A Study in Druid Magic & Lore by Douglas Monroe
  • The Alchemist’s Kitchen by Guy Ogiluy
  • The Babylonian Genesis translated by Alexander Heidel
  • The Beginning of Wisdom – Reading Genesis by Leon R. Kass
  • The Book of Enoch the Prophet translated by R.H. Charles
  • The Book of God – A Response to the Bible by Gabriel Josipovici
  • The Book of J – Translated from the Hebrew by David Rosenberg, Interpreted by Harold Bloom
  • The Book of Merlin by T.H. White
  • The Book of Wicca by Lucy Summers
  • The Complete Book of Incense, Oils, & Brews by Scott Cunningham
  • The Complete Book of Witchcraft by Raymond Buckland
  • The Complete Prophecies of Nostradamus – Translated, edited and interpreted by Henry C. Roberts
  • The Complete World of The Dead Sea Scrolls – Philip R. Davies, George J. Brooke, Phillip R. Callaway
  • The Cosmic Code by Zecharia Sitchin
  • The Da Vinci Code – Special Illustrated Edition by Dan Brown
  • The Da Vinci Project by cercando la Verita (Italiano)
  • The Divine Comedy by Dante Alighieri
  • The Dream Book by Gillian Kemp
  • The Earth Chronicles Expeditions by Zecharia Sitchin
  • The Earth Chronicles Handbook by Zecharia Sitchin
  • The Encyclopedia of Celtic Wisdom – A Celtic Shaman’s Sourcebook by Caitlin & john Matthews
  • The End of Days by Zecharia Sitchin
  • The Epic of Gilgamesh
  • The Five Jerks You Meet on Earth by Ray Zardetto
  • The Five People You Meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom
  • The Fledgling Handbook 101 by P.C. Cast
  • The Fortune Telling Book by Gillian Kemp
  • The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz
  • The Four Agreements Companion Book by Don Miguel Ruiz
  • The Foxfire Book by Eliot Wiggington + Foxfire 2-9 by Eliot Wiggington
  • The Gnostic Bible by Willis Barnstone, Marvin Meyer
  • The God Delusion by Richard Dawkins
  • The Gold of Exodus by Howard Blum
  • The Gold of the Gods by Erich Von Daniken
  • The Golden Asse of Lucius Apuleius – Translated out of Latin by William Adlington
  • The Gospel of Judas editied by Rodolphe Kasser, Marvin Meyer, and Gregor Wurst
  • The Gospel of Mary Magdalene translated by Jean-Yves Leloup
  • The Grand Inquisitor’s Manual by Jonathan Kirsch
  • The Great Encyclopedia of Faeries by Pierre Dubois
  • The Handbook of Chinese Horoscope by Theordora Lau
  • The Herbal Drugstore by Linda B. White, M.D., Steven Foster and the staff of Herbs for Health
  • The Hermetica translated by Timothy Freke & Peter Gandy
  • The Holy Place – Sauniere and the Decoding of the Mystery of Rennes-le-Chateau
  • The Iliad of Homer The Odyssey
  • The Illustrated Dictionary of Signs & Symbols by Mark O’Connell and Raje Airey
  • The Illustrated Encyclopedia of Healing Remedies by C. Norman Shealy M.D., Ph.D.
  • The Illustrated Encyclopedia of Witchcraft & Practical Magic by Susan Greenwood, Raje Airey
  • The Illustrated On the Shoulder of Giants by Stephen Hawking
  • The Jesus Dynasty by James D. Tabor
  • The Jesus Mysteries by Timothy Freke & Peter Gandy
  • The Jesus Mystery by Lena Einhorn
  • The Jesus Papers by Michael Baigent
  • The Key of Solomon the King translated from Ancient Manuscripts in the British Museum by King Solomon translated by Samuel Liddell MacGregor Mathers
  • The Koran
  • The Leadership Secrets of Jesus by Mike Murdock
  • The Lesser Key of Solomon translated by S.L. MacGregor Mathers and Aleister Crowley
  • The Lost Book of Enki by Zecharia Sitchin
  • The Lost Realms by Zecharia Sitchin
  • The Magic Power of White Witchcraft by Gavin Frost, PH.D., D.D., Yvonne Frost, D.D.
  • The Magician’s Companion by Bill Whitcomb
  • The Magick of Aleister Crowley: A Handbook of the Rituals of Thelema by Aleister Crowley
  • The Malleus Maleficarum of Heinrich Kramer and James Sprenger
  • The Maya – based on the Edgar Cayce Readings by Carolyn Hatt
  • The Mind of God by Paul Davies
  • The Missing Books of the Bible Volume 1 and Volume ii
  • The Nag Hammadi Library edited by James M. Robinson
  • The Pagan Christ by Tom Harpur
  • The Palmistry Bible by Jane Struthers
  • The Path – Creating Your Mission Statement for Work and for Life by Laurie Beth Jones
  • The Power of Myth by Joseph Campbell
  • The Secret by Rhonda Byrne
  • The Secret Language of (Birthdays), (Destiny), (Relationships) by Gary Goldschneider and Joost Elffers
  • The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People by Stephen Covey
  • The Sion Revelation by Lynn Picknett and Clive Prince
  • The Smudging and Blessings Book by Jane Alexander
  • The Spiral Dance by Starhawk
  • The Stairway to Heaven by Zecharia Sitchin
  • The Templar Revelation by Lynn Picknett and Clive Prince
  • The Torah translated by The Jewish Publication Society of America
  • The Twelve Conditions of a Miracle – The Miracle Worker’s Handbook by Todd Michael
  • The Universe In a Nutshell by Stephen Hawking
  • The Wars of Gods and Men by Zecharia Sitchin
  • The Wicca Book of Days by Gerina Dunwich
  • The Witch Book by Raymond Buckland
  • The Witch’s Book of Magical Ritual by Gavin Frost, Ph.D., Yvonne Frost, D.D.
  • The Works fo Aleister Crowley – Complete by Aleister Crowley
  • Top Secret Twenty-One by Janet Evanovich
  • To Walk a Pagan Path by Alaric Albertson
  • Understanding Symbols by Mark O’Connell and Rafe Airey
  • Visions of the Goddess by Sherrill Miller
  • When Time Began by Zecharia Sitchin
  • Wicca & Witchcraft for Dummies by Diane Smith
  • Wicca: Herbal Magic by Lisa Chamberlain
  • Witchcraft: The Ultimate Bible by Justin Kase
  • Witches by Erika Jong
  • World Trade Center – The Giants that Defied the Sky by Peter Skinner

She Cries

she cries

She takes a breath in silence, then she shudders

And sighs, then exhales gently once again

Her gaze moves slowly all across the meadow

While everything she takes in is a sin

So much of what she sees is devastation

The forests and the valleys lie in ruin

Her patience wears as thin as a silk stocking

She swears the reckoning will happen soon

Her warnings go unheeded, just as always

Her messages, on deaf ears do they fall

The few who understand her have no power

The great majority care not at all

On the morrow, once more, she will send out

A caveat of dire impending death

With heavy heart as misery surrounds her

She takes in once again a ragged breath

She knows that she must do what is required

Despite the hesitation she now feels

The malediction, once begun, continues

While everything within her path she kills

She had hoped that this time would be different

The humans had, at first, seemed much more wise

But greed became the overriding factor

And now the Mother Earth, once more, she cries


sick mother and adult child

Child to its mother: Do you know how much I love you?

Mother: I love you more.

Child: No, I love you more.

Mother: I’m so tired.

Child: You’ll be okay.

Mother: I don’t think so.

Child: What do you mean?

Mother: I think I’m done.

Child: No, you’re not done.

Mother: Yes, I am. When the wind’s blowing in your face, and the whole world is on your case….

Child: We need you.

Mother: You’re grown now. You have everything you need from me.

Child: I need you.

Mother: I’ll always be there.

Child: Stay with me.

Mother: Let me go.

Child: I don’t want to.

Mother: I need to go on.

Child: Stay.

Mother: I can’t.

Child: Please!

Mother: There ain’t nothing that I wouldn’t do to make you feel my love….

Child: Don’t leave me.

Mother: Don’t make me stay here.

Child: Don’t you love us anymore?

Mother: I love you more than you’ll ever know.

Child: Then why don’t you want to stay with us?

Mother: I do want to but I can’t. Someone needs me more.

Child: Who?

Mother: I don’t know.

Child: They’re not as important as we are.

Mother: But they need me more.

Child: How can you choose them over us?

Mother: I didn’t choose. They did.

Child: Who are they?

Mother: Someone you love.

Child: Who?

Mother: I don’t know.

Child: Then how can you go?

Mother: I have no choice.

Child: Yes, you do.

Mother: No, I don’t They’re calling for me. This is my destiny. This is your destiny. Your loneliness will be rewarded. It’s only a short time there.

Child: It’s only a short time for you but a long time for us.

Mother: You can do this. You have great strength inside you.

Child: I can’t let you go.

Mother: You must. Love my family for me. You know they are everything to me. I couldn’t leave them in better hands than yours. I had to wait until you were ready.

Child: I’m not ready.

Mother: You are. You have to be now. Don’t let them forget me. Tell them how much I love them. I’ll save a place.

Child: Don’t go.

Mother: I’ll be there when you get there.

Child: Please don’t go.

Mother: I love you, my child. Tell me you love me.

Child: I love you.

Mother: See ya. I didn’t miss the dance.


ritual fire

In the fine mist near the water

As coolness tingles on her skin

A softly spoken incantation

Fills her sacred space again

With offerings placed she calls the quarters

Vesta cast upon the flame

Into the herbal scented brightness

She calls the Goddesses by name

She does not yearn for fame or riches

Nor is it true love she desires

Her wish has always been the same one

Each time she burns her ritual fires

It is the knowledge of the ages

The only wish she’s ever known

The truth beneath the Grand Deception

Is what she wishes to be shown

She fills her days with constant learning

And walks her chosen path alone

Until, as prophesied, she’ll fade

Into the Mists of Avalon


Through the dismal winter darkness

Just outside the town of Prague

On a hill,  just one lone rider

Shrouded in a mist of fog

Turns its dark gaze slowly northward

As a slivered moon appears

Bathing in its light the landscape

As the tolling bell she hears

Creaking leather stirrup soundly

Barks into the silent night

As she,  in the distance glimpses

The realization of her plight

There,  seven riders fast approaching

Spur their heavy stallions on

Ever closer bringing menace

While ever closer comes the dawn

Motionless,  she waits in silence

Dark eyes staring at her foe

Springing suddenly to action

Stretching out her mighty bow

Deft release of seven arrows

Fill the chill air in their flight

Each loosed with skill in quick succession

Found each,  their mark, within the night

A screeching owl then broke the silence

As she, with Destiny, did flirt

She gently urged her young mare northward

And left the devils in the dirt


I look at them there, across the room, and stand amazed at their beauty, their fullness

They taunt me with their color like Pinot Gris

I long to touch them, to feel them against my skin, their softness causing a euphoric reaction that I am helpless to fight and I do not wish to, but they are yours and are not mine to do as I wish, so I remain frozen, standing against the wall, staring at them in silence

You look at me with such openness as if to say you understand my fascination, and I feel you respond to my unspoken need to caress them, your acquiescence creating an ambience that I can sense

I cannot take my eyes off them and so willingly, I cross the room and gently touch them, and as my hunger intensifies, you softly press them against my skin

I linger in the moment and suddenly you press them against my lips, and they are as resplendent as I had imagined but, oh, so much more

In suspended animation we remain, your lips pressed against mine, your hunger paralleling my own, and innately I know, this will not be our last kiss

kissing lips


The following was written using quotes from SHAKESPEARE (and/or other famous writers), mixed by me, using as few of my own words as possible, to create the following story…


My Dear Goddess,

I have been in such misery since I last saw you. I thought I was gone forever in the dark backward and abysm of time. My ending was despair. Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt. They play such fantastic tricks before high heaven as makes the angels weep. O, what man hide within him, though angel on the outward? The cunning livery of hell? What? My dear Lady Disdain, are you yet living? We may pity though not pardon thee. Thou art the mars of malcontents.

The devil can site scriptures for his purpose. O, what authority and show of truth can cunning sin cover itself with? This is fairy gold out of the jaws of death. One sees more devils than vast hell can hold. He that dies pays all debts and when he falls, he falls like Lucifer, never to hope again. O, withered is the garland of the war! The soldier’s pole is fallen, the huge army of the world’s desires. The sense of pain is most in apprehension and the poor beetle that we tread upon in corporal sufferance finds a pang as great as when a giant dies, but earthlier happy is the rose distilled than that which withering on the virgin thorn grows, lives, and dies in single blessedness.

Misery acquaints a man with strange bedfellows. Affliction may one day smile again and ‘til then, sit thee down my sorrow. They are as sick who surfeit with too much as those who starve with nothing. What we have we prize not to the worth while we enjoy it, but being lacked and lost, why then we rack the value, then we find the virtue that possession would not show us while it was ours. We pay a great deal too dear for what is given freely.

Heaven lay not transgression to my charge. Some rise by sin and others by virtue fall. Let every eye negotiate and trust no agent. A breath thou art, servile to all skyeye influences. The miserable have no other medicine but only hope. No man can counsel and speak comfort to that grief which they themselves do not feel. Everyone can master a grief but he that has it.

The jury passing on the prisoner’s life, may in the sworn twelve, have a thief or two guiltier than him they try. The judge’s robes do not become them one-half so good a grace as mercy does. How would it be if he, which is at the top of judgement, should but judge you as you are? O, it is excellent to have a giant’s strength but it is tyrannous to use it as a giant.

Dispense with trifles, we burn daylight.

Out of my lean and low ability, I’ll lend you something. What’s gone and what’s past help should be past grief. A merry heart goes all day but your sad tires in a mile. What you do still betters what is done. Let me have no lying. It becomes none but tradesmen. Virtue is bold and goodness never fearful. Truth is truth to the end of reckoning.

Full fathoms five thy father lies. His bones are coral made. Those are pearls that were his eyes. Nothing of him that doth fade but doth suffer a sea change into something rich and strange. And if his name be George, I’ll call him Peter for new made honor doth forget men’s names. I will instruct my sorrow to be proud for grief is proud and makes his owner stoop. Yet should there hover in their restless heads one thought, one grace, one wonder at least, which into words no virtue can digest, thus neglecting worldly ends, all dedicated to closeness and the bettering of my mind, merrily, merrily, shall I live now under the blossom that hangs on the bough. O, brave new world that has such people in it. Let us not burden our rememberances with a heaviness that’s gone.

Sits the wind in that corner? The wind of change? They say best men are molded out of faults and for the most part become more the better for being a little bad. Happy are they that hear their detractions and put them to mending. Nothing becomes him ill that he would well.

Every why has a wherefore.

Mother Earth was ever precise in promise keeping. Lady, I hold you as a thing enskyed and sainted. There was a star danced and under that star, I was born. I have been granted a hazard of new fortunes to unpathed waters, undreamed shores. For you in my respect are all the world. Then how can it be said that I am alone?